If by my art I am remaking myself, then I fear that it is into a lesser man.
Wrong, wrong, wrong! By whose standards??? You can not denigrate your accomplishments, your work , and your self as a creative person because the work doesn't support you. As much as financial poverty sucks, an impoverished soul is just as bad. Both forms of poverty will kill you. Reaching some form of compromise won't make you a lesser man. Being self critical will.
take care, jOe~